I forever feel uneasy about intubating.  I want to excel but instead hover around adequate.  I am not the guy who gets the airway that no one else could.

I’ve read airway texts and been through intubating courses and know lots of tips and tricks to bring the cords into view.  It doesn’t seem to matter though, I still feel like I struggle way more often than I should.  I get it done, but not with the grace befitting a skilled ER doc.

There’s one last method I haven’t tried.  It’s not in any book or course, but I’m convinced it will make me better.  So I’ve started lifting.

Yep, I found a ratty bench and set of weights on craigslist for $20 and have trudged out to my garage every other day for the last two weeks powering through a routine more suitable for a girl’s junior high B-team basketball squad.  Oh well you have to start somewhere.

Weight-lifting note #1: I mean people it really is shocking how weak I am.
Weight-lifting note #2: Especially my left arm.  I played a lot of tennis growing up so my right arm is twice as strong as my left.  Which is kind of like saying Harry is twice as smart as Lloyd.  Too bad when intubating you have to hold the laryngoscope with the left.
Weight-lifting note #3: Do not lift just before going into work.  You may find your hands to be a wee bit shaky when sewing up a lac.
Weight-lifting note #4: I’m not that into music.  All I ever listen to is podcasts but I need something a little more upbeat to get through my Curves workout.  The only music I have though are some mp3’s I picked out from my sister’s old converted CD collection.  It turns out the music I have is pretty mellow — the only thing I have close to upbeat is a No Doubt album.  Which means I’ve had Spiderwebs in my head for like two weeks running.  ”Sorry I’m not home right now, I’m walking into spiderwebs so leave a message and I’ll call you back!”  Kill me.

We’ll see how it goes — the odds are I’ll quit but those dicey intubations provide motivation.  Perfect technique will get you far, but sometimes you need to be able to add a little brute force.

And if I get a little cut that’s ok too.