The nice thing about emergency medicine is you can leave work at work. No taking call, no worrying about a pager going off. You’re responsible for all of it while you’re there and none of it when you leave.
Except I’m finding this isn’t entirely true. The longer I do this, the more I find myself looking at the world not like the just-some-guy I’ve always been, but instead with ER doctor eyes.
When I see a guy leaving a convenience store with twelve beers, a pack of cigarettes, and a who-knows-how-old hot dog, I think I’ll be seeing you someday one way or another.
When I see James Thompson’s ear swell up against Kimbo Slice I think hey an auricular hematoma and what I might do to fix it.
When my visiting one year-old niece went missing for a minute or so, I immediately began thinking about the ABC’s.
When I’m out dealing with people in no particular hurry, moving at half speed, I wonder if they’d be upset if they were in the ER and I was moving at their pace.
When I see a trampoline I think about kids with broken arms.
When I see an ATV I think about kids with cracked skulls.
When I pull leftovers of some indeterminate age from the fridge I think downside bad vomiting and diarrhea and throw them out every single time.
When I change a lightbulb, I always think of the guy I saw in the ER who was doing the same, squeezed a little too tightly, and tore his hand to shreads.
When I was up on my roof putting up Christmas lights, I kept thinking how there was a distinct chance I’d end up in an ER and I’d be starting the story by saying “well I was up on my roof putting up Christmas lights.”
When JD on Scrubs got upset with an intern for giving an ACE inhibitor to a pregnant patient, I thought internists don’t take care of pregnant patients.
When I went kayaking and saw cows on the river bank, I got closer but not too close because, you know, what if one of them slipped and fell on me.
I’m telling you I can’t help it, it’s like a reflex.
June 1, 2008 at 5:12 pm
Kimbo Slice looks like one mean motherfucker……I’d definitely stay out of his way!
June 1, 2008 at 6:05 pm
You saw a patient who had a cow fall on him? Wow. Broken bones?
(I’ve never seen that per se, I’ve just seen enough other crazy random stuff to know that it could definitely happen.)
June 1, 2008 at 6:27 pm
I don’t know if you have kids or not, but pretty much the same thing happens when you become a parent-you see the potential harm in everything!
June 1, 2008 at 7:44 pm
Go to http://amazingscott.wordpress.com! A 13-year-old in 7th grade runs it so you might find it interesting!
June 1, 2008 at 10:00 pm
I just laughed so hard at the cows/kayaking point that I snorted tea all over my keyboard.
this can’t be good for my nasal passages…
(Are you breathing easier? You might be on to the next big thing. Like a colonic for your nose
)
June 1, 2008 at 11:20 pm
The cow/kayaking one has me giggling…
Anyhow, being a firefighter will do the same thing for you. I have family members that enjoy shooting off fireworks – not only do I worry about the medical dangers, but I’m immediately trying to determine what building/tree is going to start on fire and how it is going to set off a chain reaction.
And don’t get me started on how I am always plotting how we can escape the car in the case of an accident near a body of water…
June 1, 2008 at 11:25 pm
And if you start reading through the DSM IV, you’ll really have some interesting worries.
June 2, 2008 at 2:59 am
So true!! But then my mother is a teacher and she has the same problem.
June 2, 2008 at 7:30 am
I work for a medical malpractice law firm, and I have started to see the world exactly like this. Not because I think doctors screw up all the time – because if I did I know I wouldn’t be welcome to read this blog – but because I see what terrible things people do to themselves and then want to blame doctors, and that’s how they end up on my desk.
June 2, 2008 at 10:00 am
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June 2, 2008 at 10:15 am
I do the same thing.
Unfortunately, it’s all going to be jaded in July while i’m on a trauma rotation for residency.
Nothin says love on the 4th of July like blown off hands from fireworks or major burns from people using gasoline to fuel the grill.
(I hate July 4th. Unless I’m off.)
June 2, 2008 at 11:51 am
My neighbor/friend is a nurse and she has all kinds of rules for her kids that my kids think are insane. I’m pretty sure they stem from things she saw at work.
I think becoming a parent has made me so much more aware of the risks in everything and I can’t even imagine if I knew half of what you (and she) see every day!
June 2, 2008 at 12:20 pm
I do the EXACT SAME THING, and it drives my husband nuts. Also, I diagnose people we see when we’re out and about. We went to see a band play, and I took one look at the bass player and said to my husband, “Liver disease.” When we got home, he googled the guy, and sure enough–he’s fighting Hep C.
June 2, 2008 at 4:36 pm
Hehe, I feel ya man.
June 3, 2008 at 3:24 am
Hear, hear on the DSM-IV thing. Especially since I go into work via the same entrance a lot of the ER patients use–”Hey, tardive dyskinesia.” “Wow, that schizophrenic guy’s put on a lot of weight–I wonder who gave him Zyprexa.”
June 3, 2008 at 10:59 am
I think the exact things. It is even worse when I am out with an ER doc colleague. We see some 350 pound guy working up a sweat and we say to each other – “shot gun! I got compressions – you take airway!!!”
June 3, 2008 at 4:49 pm
It’s not just a job….it’s what you are.
(More and more too.)
June 3, 2008 at 9:30 pm
“We see some 350 pound guy working up a sweat and we say to each other – “shot gun! I got compressions – you take airway!!!””
HAHAHAHAHA, dude, my health-care friends and I do that exact same thing!
June 3, 2008 at 9:33 pm
I can relate. And after you’ve been trained in EM, your mind always goes first to “what’s the worst possible thing this could be?” Then you rule that out (or in) and let the internists figure out the rest.
June 7, 2008 at 2:13 pm
For your long-term wellbeing, you must hold on to the outside world. Don’t get sucked into the inevitable trenches,rots, and narrow way to view your world. I’m an ER doc, my husband is a surgeon. Each year his view of the world gets more narrow and sclerotic. He’s less interesting as a spouse, or even a conversation partner.
June 19, 2008 at 11:47 am
Better a doctor than a lawyer. I constantly finding myself thinking, “could I bring suit against this person?” Or “do I have any legal liability in this situation?” Or “could I legally talk my way out of this?”
At least your worries don’t indicate total soullessness!
August 3, 2008 at 2:09 am
Thank you